Posts filed under 'Progressing'
I’m on a mission to become the Goddess that I was created to be. I will be whole in every area of my life. I will be financially stable and debt free (working on). I will be healthy inside and outside (getting really close). I will be spiritually guided (accomplished). Emotionally, I will be available for my family and friends (really REALLY close) because I will not allow stress to drain me (accomplished). My physical beauty will shine like a beacon, with my skin glowing and my hair in all its natural glory (accomplished). I will serve as an example to the world of what a real woman is (really REALLY close). I will keep my home fresh, clean and clutter free both inside and outside (close). My kitchen will permeate with delicious smells and tastes of cuisines (Uh, yeah, no where NEAR…won’t be happening anytime soon) My children will thrive off of the life they live because of me (accomplished will continue 4ever). My lifestyle will become contagious and people around me will begin to live better lives because of it (another lifelong mission). I will exhibit poise and elegance in my language (accomplished until I get pissed OFF lol) both verbal and nonverbal. See you at the end of the mission.
September 5th, 2008
I remember the first time I had to shovel my own snow…I dreaded it, but I didn’t want the postman to slip, fall, and crack his head, then I get sued…so I did it! It was SO liberating…THEN came the Spring and guess what…the damn grass needed to be cut…I was kind of afraid of lawn mowers because well…they were just scary to me (remember, I am afraid of a lot of stuff)…Well, I borrowed a lawn mower because mines was broken…The person I borrowed it from offered to cut the grass, but I remembered how liberating the feeling was when I shoveled for the first time by myself…I wanted to feel that liberation again…So, not only did I cut the grass, BUT I filled it with gasoline too!!! (Trust this is a HUGE deal for me) Well, from that day on, I’ve had small liberating moments…I’ve done things that made me feel good about my capabilities…Well…This morning…I woke up and my toilet was broken…I don’t know what happened, but it didn’t even cross my mind to look at it…I just said, when I get to work, I’ll call a plumber…I got dressed and then something told me to atleast look at it and see if you could tell what could possibly be wrong with it…I lifted the top and the entire inside was apart…(yeah, I don’t know how in the world that happened)…I really don’t look in toilets that often, so I wasn’t sure what went where, but for some reason, I was able to put everything back together and I FIXED IT!!! I’m so proud…This coming from a chick that, when asked to help put stuff together like a table, chairs, shelves (anything really), I would start helping the person and silently count in my head to 45 and then after 45 seconds, I would say…I just can’t do it and then would walk away…It was so much easier when I had someone around to “Just Do It”, but it is so much more gratifying when I Just Do It Myself! Remember, you don’t know what you can accomplish if you don’t try…
I started running again! I really enjoy it now because it gives me time to clear my mind and just “BE”, but DAMN…DAMN…DAMN…It’s straight kicking my ASS…Just a month ago, I could run my entire route, non stop and still go home and work out a little more…I did 1/2 my route and on top of that…I WALKED 1/2 and jogged the other 1/2 and still had 8 asthma attacks and woke up the next morning with a sore body…One thing I learned though is that pushing yourself physically gives you mental strength as well…During the route I would pick a landmark to run to…No matter how tired I got before hitting the landmark, I promised myself I would not stop…I don’t care if I was one step away from it…I was NOT allowed to stop…(this is why I had 8 asthma attacks). BUT the very second I hit it, I stopped immediately and then picked a landmark to walk too…this went on until I damn near fainted! My body kept telling me to stop girl, you ’bout the kill me…don’t you see I can’t breathe…but my mind would push me further then my body thought it could go…my mind made me beleive that I could do it…and despite my legs turning into noodles, being hot as hell and a serious lack of oxygen…I NEVER stopped before hitting my target…Now, I know for sure…If I beleive it…I can achieve it!!! All I have to do is make it to that next target and I’m one landmark closer to finishing the route!
June 29th, 2008
I noticed that I am a little more selfish as I get older…I think my happiness has to come FIRST before I can offer anybody anything.
I understand that some things is just outta my hands…not matter what I do or say, things happen the way it Needs to, no matter what I want.
I cannot help whom I love even though it may hurt people.
Just because you don’t agree DOESN’T mean it’s wrong
If I just be quiet, I can hear really well.
It’s A LOT easier to just be honest and accept the consequences
People really don’t understand that everything isn’t meant to be understood
It takes too much energy to try to hold a grudge against somebody.
I am a much nicer person than I use to be and it’s genuine…I don’t have to try NOT to be a bytch anymore, I’m just not one…
I don’t let too many things bother me anymore (hence why I’m no longer a bytch)…I have to accept things for what they are and not get angry
There’s no ONE right way to do things and a person is NOT wrong because they chose a different way than I would
It’s not up to me to point out flaws of shortcomings…It’’s not even up to me to decide what is a flaw…Who am I? (not to say that I won’t call out UGLY when I see ugly lol)
I make better decisions when I don’t let other people’s ideas taint my views
I follow my spirit, no matter what…I alway falter when I fight it and always come out okay when I listen, even if what it tells me seems wrong at the time…Spirit never steers you wrong.
I’ve noticed that I am really an intelligent beautiful woman and I seem to be getting better everyday…
Life really isn’t that bad…even in the face of losing everything, SO what…As long as I have breath, I still have another chance….
No matter what SOMEBODY is NOT going to like you, so you might as well do what’s in your heart
Having children is one of the greatest things a person can experience and worth every bit of sacrafice.
I canNOT stand people who don’t take responsiblity for their actions or that makes excuses…I have a REASON for everything I do and I have no problem telling why I did it with NO excuses
I’ve learned to just go with it and enjoy the ride. wherever it may take me.
May 17th, 2008
Can a person really “cheat on another”? I had this conversation w/a friend…
We are all our own people…we don’t belong to anyone and we can do whatever we want to…as long as we are willing to accept the consequences…Right…WHATEVER!!!
Does cheating HAVE to be sexual…
Are you already cheating by contemplating…
Have you cheated by carrying on a conversation w/someone you know is interested in you or that you are interested in…
If someone does “cheat” on you…Does that mean that didn’t want to be with you anyways and you should just let it go
After a person finds out you are cheating and they decide to stay are you still “cheating” on them.
What do you think?
May 4th, 2008
If you are a member of Black Planet, I have a group on there called…you guessed it…Fabulous Black Woman http://groups.blackplanet.com/fabulousblackwoman
We discuss many topics, especially those related to relationships and REAL womanhood…If you are a member, please join, it’s a FABULOUS GROUP of 700 members. One of the topics we discussed was what could We do to be better? Here is what I posted. What do you think could help us progress?
I think we have to learn to be single in order to get to know ourselves and our strengths.
I think we have to learn to be QUITE and listen
We have to learn to be submissive
Know that we can’t always be in control
Be careful of the way we carry ourselves at ALL times…somebody is always watching.
Realize it’s impossible to be a father and that our son’s need postive role models.
Compliment a sistah if she’s doing the damn thang… try to pull her up if she’s not
STOP gossiping so much
Stay off of Maury and Springer lol.
May 2nd, 2008
